Saturday 24 November 2012

Big Decisions

The future is bright and airy. As I stand before an array of tunnels, dark and foreboding, I can finally feel the cool breeze that will lead me out; the smell of fresh air, and the promise of sunshine. The limitless sky stretched out before me, I feel hopeful. The possibilities are endless. The winds are changing.

I think the only things that top today are my birth and my wedding. Even though these emails are probably pretty generic, all I keep replaying in my head is “Congratulations on your outstanding academic achievement”. I mean, I never thought of myself as a university student before. I can’t even stop saying it, university. It hasn’t sunk in yet. I’ve never felt so excited and so scared in my whole life, but I know this is fated. I feel assured that everything will fall perfectly into place.

University… This is a big dream, but I’ve got 10 months to dream even bigger. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be going to university, it just sounds so smart! And it’s not to say I didn’t think I was smart, but university always had this je ne sais quoi about it that felt untouchable to me, like I wasn’t privĂ© to that exclusive club. We set our own limits and its incredibly freeing when you let go of them.

Saturday 3 November 2012

Computer problems?

Not that anyone actually keeps tabs on my blog, but my computer is currently not working. It makes it really difficult to blog because all I have is the shitty iPhone app, so until further notice my blogs will probably be sparse. I'll have to write with a pen and paper, god forbid :P haha. Which I've been doing. Since its all I've got right now. Sometimes it's good to get back to basics.

Sometimes I miss the pen and paper. Somehow it's become outdated but I envy the old scripters, they wrote so beautifully!! I've been revisiting a dark place recently and it's allowed me to learn some things about myself that I'd forgotten. Still waiting to hear back from school, I'm not sure how long these things usually take or even if they send you an actual letter in the mail. I'm sure you'll here from me though when I do. Hopefully it's good news! Ciao for now! And let's hope my computer is fixed soon!!

A.